Universal Yuu Shirota Ramen

I like to think I’m a fairly good sport about it, but it’s wearing thin. I mean, I don’t owe anyone any explanations, but (none-the-less), I try and explain it to curious people. My perpetual ‘singleness’ is something that baffles my peers, and I don’t really get it. So, here I was in the backseat of the car with Ashley, Brad, Matthew and his girlfriend when suddenly, out of nowhere, I’m asked: “No offense Courtney, but have you ever had any sort of boyfriend?” Right, so I’m usually good about this. But usually I see it coming, because this usually comes up when discussing dating topics or whatever. I didn’t see this from a mile away. I had to stop and compose my answer instead of deadpanning, “Shut up, you jerk!” I think this was all brought on by my fancy of Colonel Sanders hours earlier.

You see, we left earlier in the evening for Hollywood to go to Universal Studios City Walk. In the food court there is a KFC and a life-sized Colonel Sanders sitting on a bench. We got to know each other and he became my ‘boyfriend’. Thus, somebody thought to ask me really. Yes. So, anyhow, I thought about my answer rather than being rude. As I wanted to be in a car full of couples. I explained to them that I, kind of like Paul, am momentarily blessed with singleness. And that when I date, it’s going to be for marriage. I’m not ready to be married, so I’m not ready to date. To which was replied: “Good point,” and “But not in this day and age.” Surprise, surprise, right?

I just feel so disconnected sometimes from some people. I mean, they sound like my singleness is wrong. It isn’t as though I don’t want to be married someday or love someone. It isn’t that at all. And excuse me for knowing what’s right for me. For some people ‘fun’ dating is what works for them. But I’ve been aware from early on that is not what's suitable for me. I dislike having to defend myself to others who find it odd, because then even I start to doubt myself. Like, is it strange? But it’s not. I know that when I’m ready, God has somebody just right for me and who will help me grow to know Him in ways I never have before. Before I'm ready to walk with someone else, I have to work on my relationship with God. Just, for me, I think dating = marriage, not dating = someone to hang out with, go to dinner with, etc. That’s what I have friends for. And I’m not ready to be married yet, so I, personally, have no business dating.

I suppose all I can do is kindly supply the condensed version of these values, because not a lot of people are ever going to see where I’m coming from. It’s just the way of things, sometimes, even if I don’t particularly care for such ways. *sigh*

On a brighter note, I got some yum-yum-yum ramen tonight from Orochan Ramen in Little Tokyo. My lips are still burning.

Yey.

Oh, and Dear God? Do you think it would be to much to ask for Yuu Shirota wrapped in a pretty, shinny bow once you think I'm ready?

Toodle Pip.