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It occurs to me how strange things are going to be without Becca and Anneke. I mean, it's going to be strange however you slice it in regard to all my friends, but them especially, as I either spend time with one or the other or both. So, without either of them, I'm turning to my friends back home who, no doubt, have made new friendships in their new schools and have grown and changed. It's like cutting into the middle of a movie without seeing the beginning; there's something missing and you have to draw your own conclusions about the plot you've missed thus far. I mean, it's probably not so delicate, but I'm preparing myself for the middle of the movie and already formulating ideas. I've been gone for almost a year with only short, unsatisfying visits between; moreover, the friends closest to me when I left seem a little farther. That's sad, isn't it? I can't count on my siblings (much) to fill in those gaps, so I have a whole summer basically to myself. Mom says I can't get a job (and, frankly, I don't want one) and the likelihood of me finding a pre-cal class is dwindling every day. And you know about the friend situation now. I suppose going back and building up friendships is a viable option, but what happens when September hits again and I'm off to school again for another year? "Oh, see you in four months guys!" Hopefully my point is illustrated.

That aside, I'm excited too. Reading, sleeping, eating, Disneyland, family... though I suspect the novelty of these things, like novelty does, will wear off once my family and I are used to another again (and, therefore, on each others' nerves). Oh, I can't wait to spend summer at the library, which I suspect I will do. Reading is my passion, Passion, PASSION. So I hope I'll have ample opportunity to spend on expanding my reading repertoire and, maybe, I can even buy books! Oh, that would be heavenly. I have a wish list on Borders.com right now, and it's my dream to obtain all these books before I reach the age of twenty one. Sure, I could be excited about legal drinking age, but I'd rather spend time and money on something I can enjoy over and over again, not something that will give me Jondis and a twitch. The only thing is that I have forty items on my wish list, and books aren't the cheapest things nowadays. As for the items, a few of the titles are: The Hunger Games, Graceling, The Hollow Kingdom Trilogy, Stargirl, Flipped, Fire and a few Jane Austen novels. AND SPEAKING OF THE HUNGER GAMES!

Mockingjay, Mockingjay, Mockingjay, mockingjay, mockingjay, Mockingjay, MOCKINGJAY! I don't know if I have ever been so excited for the release of ANYTHING, except maybe Kingdom Hearts II. This series, The Hunger Games triology, is sooooo awesome. I'm serious. I've gotten Anneke, Becca and Melissa to read it, all with the appropriate amount of awe in response (although Anneke's awe was subdued; it's hard to get her excited sometimes). Catching Fire, the sequel, was Ah-Maz-iiiing! Which, Becca, reminds me of our earlier conversation at lunch about us meeting and my "Bus ride from Hell". That is the book I read to soften my awful travel exploit. Anyhoo, I have to wait until AUGUST! for this release and it's slowly killing me, which means my agony is great and unparalleled. I'm going to pre-order it this summer, for it's the only thing that can ease my Mockingjay-fever.... *sigh*

I'm avoiding studying for chem. La. La. La. Chem is so hard to study for, you know. I just can't seem to focus... reaction rate? Something to do with time... Hey, should I know this for the test... Oooh, facebook! Hunger Games fansite... Bathroom! Ohhh, Deviantart and your prettyful Zutara fanart. WRITING! La. La. La. Decomposition rate... something about decomposing... Ooooh, Julie Andrews! La. La. La.

I hate finals. We should have, like, three days without school beforehand to devote to studying for them. I need that, seriously. La. La. La. Well, I should study for chemmm....

La. La. La. Toodle-pip.